I didn't understand until now and it makes perfect sense

You ever lose that one person you didn't want to lose? Well, I just did.. didn't think it would happen for the sake of her privacy I wont reveal her name. But, I never knew how she felt until now. For most of my life relationships haven't been a strong point in my life. I had been able to communicate but, not like I wanted too and just about all the girlfriends I had communication was lacking. Then she came along, it was different with her. Looking back on it now we should have just stayed friends. I don't regret a lot of stuff but I regret that decision. Now, when every girlfriend I had broke up with me it has been through text and I never found anything wrong with that. When I broke up with her through text though it hit a nerve with her. She found it "rude", "disrespectful", and "not classy", she felt I should have had the decency to call her. Thats my fault but I never knew it was or she felt like that because all she told me was I could have went about it differently. Then every time we argued I wouldn't call her but every time except one, I couldn't call her. I was preoccupied, but it makes sense, she said I go on and on about communication but "I suck at it". I thought about it she has some truth to it, but I just go by off what has happened to me in the past and that's probably not the best thing. She said I changed for the worst, didn't see it that way, but I'm deeply sorry for ever hurting you or making you feel that way. I never acknowledged it because I never thought of it as disrespectful or rude but, I now know. Sometimes it takes losing the person you didn't want to lose to better yourself. So, I'm sorry but I want to thank you at the same time for opening my eyes. I will get better and when I do I kinda owe half of it to you. So, with that being said take care of ya self hope you end up being what you wanted to be and I'll still pray for you. God Bless, be safe.

Never Understanding Women

Since, the beginning of time women have been humans we have not been able to understand. That trend continues to stand tall in my generation as well. I will never understand them and I really don't want to in all honesty. They make no sense to me and probably most men agree with me as well. This week has just proven that they are a mystery and only one person knows the answer. That is the the one who created us all, God. I can't live with them and can't live without them.

Now, women are so damn complicated they say one thing but they expect us to do another. They blame guys for there's no good guys around but truth is in my generation there aren't a lot of good girls around either. Most of them are jump-offs, hoes, or they just have no respect for themselves and don't have there shit together. Also, I learned a lot from August till now. Some women don't take criticism well, some can't go from being your girl to being one of your good friends, and some don't take rejection well. I guess this experience is good for me because until now most of my home girls are like me, so with that being said I'M STILL NOT CHANGING WHO I AM! I REFUSE TO, I WON'T, I'M NOT GOING TO WATCH MY MOUTH!

Sorry, but if your kitchen is dirty, I think you need to know I would expect you to do the same for me. If I think you look a little jacked up, I am going to tell you and I would expect you to do the same for me. I can be the nicest guy in the world and no, I'm not perfect but I treat girls right. The way a real gentleman is supposed too (most of the time) but, that isn't good enough no more. Shake my head, Shake my head. Why girls go for the girl that they know is not right for them? I have no clue that is a mystery that I will never  understand. You want us to respect you but, you giving it up on the first night, niggas go through you more than they go through a drive way. Sorry, I'm a virgin and I would have a hard time respecting you. There aren't a lot of good guys left but I'm trying to hold on to this being respectful but it's like most the time when you respect some women they rather get disrespected. Why? I don't know. Kind of amusing at times. lol. There's only so much a nice guy can take before you make him cold-hearted and I'm getting to that point. I never cheated or laid hands on a woman but they be wanting nothing to do with me after we break up like I did cheat or put my hands on them. If that's the case I should have cheated. Shake My Head.

When it comes to girls and relationships I'm clueless. I have tried to be nice and most of them say "Aww you're the sweetest guy I've ever known" but when it comes to one big argument that's it. Now last relationship was my fault. Girls assume way too much as if you still want to be their friend after we are longer a couple as we trying to control you or me not wanting you to move on. Hate to bust your bubble but in my case thats not the point. If I care about you and we didn't have a bad break up there's a good chance a very high percentage I am going to still care about you. You're going to be probably one of my close friends so therefore I am going to ask you questions that a close friend would ask and if you can't handle that then just don't be my friend point, blank, simple, period.
When I get to heaven I want to ask God why he made women so difficult. Until then my time here is done.