I didn't understand until now and it makes perfect sense

You ever lose that one person you didn't want to lose? Well, I just did.. didn't think it would happen for the sake of her privacy I wont reveal her name. But, I never knew how she felt until now. For most of my life relationships haven't been a strong point in my life. I had been able to communicate but, not like I wanted too and just about all the girlfriends I had communication was lacking. Then she came along, it was different with her. Looking back on it now we should have just stayed friends. I don't regret a lot of stuff but I regret that decision. Now, when every girlfriend I had broke up with me it has been through text and I never found anything wrong with that. When I broke up with her through text though it hit a nerve with her. She found it "rude", "disrespectful", and "not classy", she felt I should have had the decency to call her. Thats my fault but I never knew it was or she felt like that because all she told me was I could have went about it differently. Then every time we argued I wouldn't call her but every time except one, I couldn't call her. I was preoccupied, but it makes sense, she said I go on and on about communication but "I suck at it". I thought about it she has some truth to it, but I just go by off what has happened to me in the past and that's probably not the best thing. She said I changed for the worst, didn't see it that way, but I'm deeply sorry for ever hurting you or making you feel that way. I never acknowledged it because I never thought of it as disrespectful or rude but, I now know. Sometimes it takes losing the person you didn't want to lose to better yourself. So, I'm sorry but I want to thank you at the same time for opening my eyes. I will get better and when I do I kinda owe half of it to you. So, with that being said take care of ya self hope you end up being what you wanted to be and I'll still pray for you. God Bless, be safe.